Weight Loss Update and Therapy Rant 8D
I told y'all I'd be updating you on Wednesdays and here we are! Last Wednesday I was 258 pounds, having lost 6 pounds since the week before. And this week?
That's right! I did not lose at all this week! Nor did I gain! So I'll mark that one as a sort of victory for now. Now I start working even harder to lose weight. Ugh. It's gonna be a tough one, folks.
But, that's not really what I want to talk to y'all about this week. Yes, I put that at the beginning so those of y'all who wanted to see would be able to get that one thing and go. Now, those of you who want to hear what else I have to say... please enjoy this rant about my therapist.
Quick thing, for those of you who didn't know, I grew up in a fundamentalist Christian home. I and my siblings were taught that the Bible is literally true. Now, if you're a fundamentalist Christian or you believe everything in the book is true, fine. I am no longer a religious person at all anymore. However, my therapist knows this, we've covered this.
So what does he choose to suggest I do? Become a Buddhist! 8D Because that works. "Hey, person who has a certain amount of trauma from a religious upbringing, have this other brand of religion that you've certainly never looked into, even though it was incredibly trendy when you were just coming out of your other religion!" And then he had the audacity to tell me Buddhism isn't a religion. Please, tell that to all the governments that include it in the census or the countries that embraced it as their state religion. Please do. I'll laugh.
Okay, I apologize for being somewhat edgy in that. If I come off as angry, I am not. I am mildly perturbed. The man I go to is intelligent. There's no reason he should be offering me a new religion. If I came to him asking for a religion, I would be happy he offered one. But he offered one and I pointed out I wasn't looking for one. He still offers one.
But that's not all, folks!
He told me that everything is the same as everything else. Brushing your teeth is the same as taking a journey. Everything you eat is the same as everything else. Why? "Because nothing actually matters." Hello, Nihilism, great to have you in this therapy session that's set on addressing major anxiety and depression.
By the way, yes, I suffer from both anxiety and depression. I've gotten most of it under control thanks to my friends, my husband, and my own activity. I used to be suicidal. I used to make plans on how to go. It's much better now, you don't have to worry about it.
But, yeah, telling a person who lost their mobility that it doesn't matter is a wonderful way to fulfill your asshole quota for the day.
Anyway, thanks for reading my rant. I'll post again on Friday with some writing updates!